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Hello, Old Friend

Wow.  It’s been almost a year since I’ve been here.  A year and a half since I’ve posted goals.  I’m baaaaaack! As far as the food posting, I’ve been pretty consistent, just in a different spot:

http://www.meallogger.com/consumers/our-heroes/jane

That’s right, I am a meallogger hero!  And my junior high school geography teacher told me I’d never get anywhere. Ha!

The only problem is I have been posting crap: cookies, wine, cocktails made from Trader Joe’s swill.  And lately it has gotten so bad [scrapes cookie crumbs from molars] I haven’t even posted.  [le sigh]

Before I outgrow all my clothes and find I made it all the way to my daughter’s wedding slightly buzzed (she’s five now), I want to recommit myself to healthy me.

I know December is a hella stupid time to set weight-loss goals.  Instead, I want to recommit myself to being committed.  Here are my goals for December:

– Some sort of exercise every single flippin’ day.  50 squats and/or 20 pushups counts.  I.  Must.  Move.  my fitbit got run over,  and I need to get myself moving without daily calibration.  I need to, or I will not have any pants left.

– Alcohol only two days a week.  It’s so yummy!  And it makes me forget my woes so quickly.  I need to keep my woes in mind so I can annihilate them rather than inebriate them. Divorce hurts.  Poverty hurts.  Alcohol is more painful and expensive than I can afford.  ‘Mmmmm ‘K?

– Healthy eating (no grains, dairy, sugar) five nights per week.  For serious.

Yo!  I am writing it here to keep myself honest.

Hi Self.  I love you.  I want you to be healthy and fit.  I want you to check out your own biceps and say, “damn!” silently to said biceps.  I am an atheist.  I get one life. Why the heck am I wasting it with crap?  Now I go to bed with a book and wake up to workout.  ‘Cause I like wearing clothes in small sizes and feeling fit and seeing life and loving it.  Life.  Is.  Good.

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Goals: July 2013

Hello, July!  I am writing to you on Day 1.  Fancy that!  I want to actually take advantage of this flipping month and get stuff done (as opposed to last month when I didn’t even post goals until the month was more than half over).

First, a look back at June (a pitiable month):

June 2013

  • Exercise 5 times per week Yes, with the exception of LA
  • 2 tony walks Yes, if I count the one I did today
  • no drinking sans friends YES
  • cost benefit analysis of LA NO
  • write birth story slam woman YES
  • write everyday for at least 15 minutes Ick.  Took last week off mostly — LA again
  • post weekly on boobjuice — 3 out of four
  • review paleOMG NO
  • Ask C re: 5K coverage YES
  • Write one sketch Hoping to do it tonight
  • Trim plastic on dining table YES
  • sell three things on craigslist Not at all
  • upload Library story NO (but on purpose because I am retelling it)
  • upload June 22nd stories NO
  • update profile pics on blogs NO
  • schedule Divorce meetings NO

The late in the month posting of goals and the week in Los Angeles both contributed to June not being a very productive month.

  • write everyday for 15 minutes
  • post weekly on bj or bg
  • write two sketches (including the one from June month)
  • review storytelling book in prep for loretta’s workshop
  • take my old clothes to good will
  • ask dixie re: storytelling workshop
  • d doctor’s appointment
  • upload june 22nd stories
  • update profile pics on blogs
  • eric over for dinner
  • 2 tony runs in prep for 5k
  • run 5 k
  • interview and post woman recommended by career coach amanda
  • career coach homework
  • get a massage
  • exercise five times per week
  • post food diary daily (slacking)
  • organize d’s closet
  • order d’s bed
  • rearrange d’s room
  • make a schedule with marnie for swap
  • outline patterns story
  • meet/talk with birth story woman
  • contact birthways re: breastfeeding book
  • order 10 copies breastfeeding book
  • finish may’s heart ritual (sew pillow, decorate paper)

Maybe it’s because last month felt so unproductive — even counterproductive with all the crap I was eating — by the end, I woke up to July feeling ready to take on the world.  Mantra of the month:  I am responsible for my own happiness and success.  Bring on the goals!  Hitting print now!

 

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Goals: June 2013

Errr, I guess June is half over.  Not quite sure how that happened.  Maybe part of the problem is I didn’t print May goals until after May 20th.  Whoops.  So here I am, last day of school for the child, looking out at the vast, uncharted territory of summer, excited by the freedom and trepidatious about the lack of structure — trepidatious enough that I just signed her up for another week of camp; wish I’d written it on the list so I could cross it off….

OK, first a look back at the May that almost wasn’t printed:

  • Write and print goals – YES
  • Finish career coach questionares – YES
  • Finish divorce homework – YES
  • Make an appointment with advisor for divorce homework (just emailed her!) – Had two meetings since this
  • Post in BoobJuice once a week — Mondays! – Maybe; kinda forgot, but have been writing everyday since May 30.
  • Post PaleOMG – NO
  • Post Paleo Pudding II – YES
  • Update bio pics on blogs – NO
  • Finish D bday dress and my skirt – YES and NO (D let me off the hook on my skirt) 🙂
  • D party favors – YES
  • D birthday book – YES
  • Flea treatment for cats – YES
  • 50 pages in book – I GIVE UP!
  • Dust my house!! – YES
  • 2 meetings with career coach – YES
  • Research transcription app – NO
  • Continue insanity – NO!!! Stopped after 41 days
  • Three days of slimkicker food charting – NO
  • Clean out D’s closet & books – NO (well, maybe a little)
  • Clean out my closet and books (for Dad) – NO (just a little)
  • Chart exercise – YES
  • Write Lisa F story – NO (so unmotivated to do this)
  • Submit/audition for one thing – Kinda — I got two gigs: Marin library, June 7, and Bawdy, June 20.  Yay!
  • No drinking alone – decided mid-month and followed through

June 2013

  • Exercise 5 times per week
  • 2 tony walks
  • no drinking sans friends
  • cost benefit analysis of LA
  • write birth story slam woman
  • write everyday for at least 15 minutes
  • post weekly on boobjuice
  • review paleOMG
  • Ask C re: 5K coverage
  • Write one sketch
  • Trip plastic on dining table
  • sell three things on craigslist
  • upload Library story
  • upload June 22nd stories
  • update profile pics on blogs
  • schedule Divorce meetings

OK, maybe I’ll add more later.  That’s it for now.

 

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Goals: May 2013

Wow!  A week doesn’t seem like a very long time, but when I imagine it as 25% of the month, I feel rather behind.  Wait!  Only 20%; May has five weeks.  I am 5% less slackery than I thought.  Phew!

OK, here’s a look back at April:

Goals, April 2013

– one meeting with career coach — YES! (phone meeting, and she wasn’t available for a real one until May)

– plumbing issue resolved — YES!!! So happy!

– start story outline for Story Ark — NO

– research story Ark competitors — YES! Not really anything.

– purchase hosting for URL — NO

– get below 130 — YES!  (if only for a day or two)

– continue Whole 30 through 4/19 — YES

–  aim to keep fruit under 28 grams/day — yes, with some slip ups

– only one rice per day post 4/19 — YES

– five workouts per week — six even, because I started Insanity!

– 2 longer workouts — Yes; Insanity counts

– 2 tony walks — Yes

– submit story to Lisa Faulkner — YES, but wanna do another

– post Benjamin/Matthew stories — YES

– update D’s journal — YES, and need to again

– one divorce meeting — YES!

– cat flea treatment — YES!

– up to page 250 in my book — YES!

– finish improv book — NO

– book mani/pedi (after meeting weight goal) — YES!

– post re: paleOMG — NO

– transcribe one story — NO

– research transcription app — NO

 

OK, there were a lot of “yeses” in there.  Yay for that!  I did actually look at my list a few times during the month and intentionally set about doing things on it.  Yay for that, too!

In broad strokes, I want to be doing more writing/creating — I did write and shoot a whole little sketch this month with Group Hug.  It was an unexpected and satisfying accomplishment.  I aslo did an impromptu Whole 30 at the behest of an old friend and started Insanity inspired by another.  Yay for rising to meet unexpected challenges.  🙂

I also want to find the balance between teetotaling and being an alcoholic.  For serious.  There has got to be some middle ground between not drinking any alcohol and having some (even just one glass) every night.  I am not yet sure where that balance lies.

OK.  I am really putting off writing this list of goals.  I have placed the cat on my lap twice, and am currently watching as she licks herself and places with my foot (she wouldn’t stay on my lap).  Facebook is thoroughly checked, and I’ve made sure any email that has the misfortune to land in my inbox is not resting there for more than a minute before I read it in its entirety.  Yes, even the ones from Living Social.  So there you go.  I am admitting it; I am avoiding writing my goals.  Maybe goal one should be, “write your goals!!”

May 2013 Goals:

  • Write and print goals
  • Finish career coach questionares
  • Finish divorce homework
  • Make an appointment with advisor for divorce homework (just emailed her!)
  • Post in BoobJuice once a week — Mondays!
  • Post PaleOMG
  • Post Paleo Pudding II
  • Update bio pics on blogs
  • Finish D bday dress and my skirt
  • D party favors
  • D birthday book
  • Flea treatment for cats
  • 50 pages in book
  • Dust my house!!
  • 2 meetings with career coach
  • Research transcription app
  • Continue insanity
  • Three days of slimkicker food charting
  • Clean out D’s closet & books
  • Clean out my closet and books (for Dad)
  • Chart exercise
  • Write Lisa F story
  • Submit/audition for one thing

OK, that feels like a lot, a lot!!  To bed to read!

 

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Goals: April 2013

I decided to write my goals today instead of yesterday, because yesterday could have just been passed off as a joke, right? I mean, given Caesar Chavez’s birthday and all.  I started in on a rare, but inspired, mid-month Whole 30 at the end of last month (3/21) spurred on by a junior high school buddy whom I haven’t actually seen or spoken to in over twenty years.  Yay Facebook!

Here’s what last month looked like:

 

– Find career coach — NO!  Need to focus on this more in April

– Apply for Women’s initiative — Took first steps, but waiting to hear back

– Buy my URL — YES!

– Research story crafting idea (competition, potential price, format) — NO! Cut and paste to next month

– Chat with Sej  — YES!  Very useful.

– Chat with Dixie — Yes!

– Sell iPad — YES! didn’t think I”d actually do that

– buy iPad mini — NO!  Went and looked but decided to wait for next generation

– post birth story on boobjuice — YES! Gratifying!

– transcribe Anna birth story on boob juice — NO!

– submit story to Lisa Faulkner — NO!

– more brainstorming video ideas — NO!

– write Bakesale Betty script — NO!

– make onesies for new niece — YES!

– mail onesies and JF present — YES! (on april 1st, anyway)

– ask C re: eye doctor — NO!

– up to page 200 Wolf Hall — YES! (on the 1st of April anyway)

– finish posting Feb stories — YES!

– book April story party — YES!

Food/Exercise:

– 2 Tony walks — NO.

– Workout 5 days per week — Pretty much

– one rice per day — or less because I went Whole 30 3/21

– two fruits per day — mostly

– two alcohol per week — eeeh.  Too much at the beginning — none by the end

– no gluten — except for three occasions

– no dairy — except for three occasions

– no sugar — except for three occasions

Goals, April 2013

– one meeting with career coach

– plumbing issue resolved

– start story outline for Story Ark

– research story Ark competitors

– purchase hosting for URL

– get below 130

– continue Whole 30 through 4/19

–  aim to keep fruit under 28 grams/day

– only one rice per day post 4/19

– five workouts per week

– 2 longer workouts

– 2 tony walks

– submit story to Lisa Faulkner

– post Benjamin/Matthew stories

– update D’s journal

– one divorce meeting

– cat flea treatment

– up to page 250 in my book

– finish improv book

– book mani/pedi (after meeting weight goal)

– post re: paleOMG

– transcribe one story

– research transcription app

 

OK.  A lot for now.  Maybe there’s more?  Current goal: go to bed!

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Goals: March 2013

How is it March already? Yowzers!

Here’s what February looked like:

– coffee only once a day — for realzz! — Was I joking? Totally failed

– rice no more than once a day — Yeah, I think so.

– clean eating with exception of premeditated cheats — looser than I’d planned, but ok

– Fruit no more than twice a day with exception of premeditated cheats (I am aiming for 28 grams of sugar or less) — Not perfect, but I was glad to have this focus

– alcohol no more than 2 days a week — eeh

– exercise 5 days a week — Yeah, I think so

– 2 tony walks — Just one

– below 130 reward: mani/pedi — Haven’t weighed yet. was at 130.6 last time I checked. So close!!

– write/find a piece for saturday night special — NO

– practice karaoke/singing — A lil — did manage to sing something at Saturday Night Special though. 🙂

– make doctor’s appointment — Yes!

– make dentist appointment — Yes!

– make dermatologist appointment — Yes! (just today)

– post mothup videos (Feb 9) — Half way

– write about fitbit for BG (finish post started in Jan) — Yes!

– write story for MothUP — Yes!

– contact the Moth re: support — Yes!

– transcribe one of of my oral stories — No

– write two longer boob juice posts — No

– brainstorm boob juice video ideas (like, actually sit down and do this on purpose) — maybe record parenting tips? — A little. Want to do more

– repair D’s stuffed animals — Yes!

– compile dance clothes for swap — Yes!

– get up to at least page 200 in novel I’m reading (Wolf Hall) — Ugh. No. 136. Realized that my eyes are really hurting with extra screen time. Maybe this is part of my problem with this book — reading on the iPad

– submit/audition/query two creative projects (TAL Coincidence counts) — Yes to TAL, and in contact with the Vent

– Look up training that five “health gurus” have — No — shift in focus

– write to Z re: R and decide whether or not to send it — YES!

 

– Find career coach

– Apply for Women’s initiative

– Buy my URL

– Research story crafting idea (competition, potential price, format)

– Chat with Sej

– Chat with Dixie

– Sell iPad

– buy iPad mini

– post birth story on boobjuice

– transcribe Anna birth story on boob juice

– submit story to Lisa Faulkner

– more brainstorming video ideas

– write Bakesale Betty script

– make onesies for new niece

– mail onesies and JF present

– ask C re: eye doctor

– up to page 200 Wolf Hall

– finish posting Feb stories

– book April story party

Food/Exercise:

– 2 Tony walks

– Workout 5 days per week

– one rice per day

– two fruits per day

– two alcohol per week

– no gluten

– no dairy

– no sugar

– pick two cheat days to incorporate the above (already cheated on the 1st, 2nd, and third)

OK, that feels like a lot. Excited and motivated. Want to make sure I am focused on the most useful things.

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Smuggling Contraband onto the Wagon

I was a goddess in January. I followed the rules and stayed clean. Like an addict, I am having a difficult time with reintegrating a “little bit” of junk into my life here and there this month. One cheat day is bleeding into another and creating a blur of February that is sure to blur the edges of my thighs as well. I mean, if I can have a treat today, why not tomorrow? Why not the next day? If it’s in the house, and in my system, I am having a hard time saying no.

Last night’s pizza was almost premeditated. I knew spending time with the friends we shared our day with was likely to end in pizza and wine. And I wanted it. I even knew that I would start out not eating the cheese and that after a glass of wine it would seem ok. And after that, why not eat some sugar, too? I mean, obv.

Argh. So, I think one thing I can do to help myself is reintroduce some more rules. Just like with alcohol, from now on, sugar alone is going to be a no go. That doesn’t help me tremendously when I have a willing accomplice, but two of the brownies I’ve eaten in the last week have been whilst alone. And they are the ones about which I feel worst.

I don’t want to over-regulate myself and then rebel — I think part of this month’s debauchery is in response to last month’s purity — but I need to have more structure than I am currently giving myself. So there you go: I love you, Self, and because I love you, I am not going to let you eat sugary sweets alone. I am going to make sure you have someone to enjoy them with or save them for a time when you do.

The other thing that helps snowball my gross eating and self-care habits is lack of exercise. This morning, for the first time I can remember in the longest time — maybe a year or more — I showered without having done some sort of exercise first. It had been two days, and I couldn’t go any longer, and I also didn’t make time to move my body before hand. Feels like dessert without dinner. And I know that this week’s schedule will make it rough to get workouts in; the child only has two days of school, and I have a ton of appointments. So here’s the other commitment I am making to you, Self: I will do what I can when I can even if it means jumping jacks during improv and kegels in the car.

OK. I have outed myself on the contraband items, and I am dumping my supplies. Wagons ho! with a lighter load! There’s still time to meet February’s goals. I love you!

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